I’m Craving Wine and Chocolate Again

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That’s code for my period is coming, in case that was unclear. Under normal circumstances, I’d choose a platter of cheese or anything picante to pair with my wine. But this distinct feeling, where I want something sweet to go with the crisp, cold glass of sauvignon blanc, is a telltale sign that my period is coming.

My PMS can be pretty disruptive, not going to lie. But sometimes, I find the onslaught of emotions to be kind of fun. The smiling purple emoji comes to mind (😈)—the one that’s never up to any good. That’s because I can tap into some deeper emotional state when I’m drunk on my feelings, which leads me to be more creative with my thoughts and daring with my goals. Well, at least that’s how I get when I’m alone. I twirl around the kitchen by my glorious self and come up with idea after idea. But for whatever reason, when I’m with other people during this time, I’m more like the frowning purple emoji (👿). I don’t want to have to answer to anybody. I don’t want to have to care about anyone. When I’m PMSing, I just want to be with me, myself, and I—indulge in all my heart’s desires and not give a lick about anyone else.

I’m craving wine and chocolate again. That means I finished the jar of Nutella and I popped open a bottle of wine. I wrote down ten different prompts for Florré, I journaled three pages, I watched a bunch of aspirational vlogs, and I danced in the kitchen.

We as women have it hard. Sometimes I feel like there are only two weeks in the month where I actually feel normal and stabilized. And while most months, PMS means I’m picking fights with my partner and throwing my workout routine out the window, sometimes it means taking advantage of my emotions and pouring it into something creative. Not all months will feel like this, it’s true. But if there’s even a little bit of room for control, then tap into those emotions, hun. Let’s use our periods to our advantage.

Love,

Your PMS-ing Bianca